20th February, 2006
Simplicity
I don’t know what it is, but no matter how hard I try to “beat” my depression, how much I want to live day-to-day without the feelings of aloneness, fear and apathy, I find myself actually missing it at times. There’s something about isolation and withdrawl that is comforting to me. I tend to feel like I do my best thinking at times that I’m depressed. I feel much more introspective and aware of what is wrong with me and the world. Perhaps it is because I have spent so much time in those dark places that I am very familiar with them and, as such, they have become a “safe place” for me. Being able to feel happy and to see the brighter side of things can be an uncomfortable experience, especially while living in a society where negativity seems to be the norm. After all, if you’re not bitching about some personal tragedy or haven’t watched the latest reality TV drama, you tend to stick out. However, despite my own occasional fondness for solitude, I know that too much is detrimental to your wellbeing. I wish more people would be willing to buck the trend and would just lighten up a bit. I’d be happy to share our discomfort at the same time we are sharing our happiness. Who knows, maybe other people would see us and have the strength to make that leap as well.
Posted at 6:04 am | Comment (1)
On February 25, 2006 at 22:18 Sheryll said:
February 25, 2006 at 22:18
You don’t have to publish this, but I just wanted to say that I’m willing to take that leap with you because I know in my heart that you love me with all your heart and soul. I love you baby.